Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?
Hola Galeras,
I think about this so much. I’m super productive but I do burn out too. It’s natural. I read a lot all the time. So much self help and fictional books. I think it helps my mind expand. I feel like being constantly thinking is better than being constantly doing. It’s a war nonetheless. I’m as I say “always making”. So I get very depressed when I take time off but I know it’s easy to get brain fog when I over do it. The rule is for every painting I finish I take a day off. That could mean video games, books, walks, taking photos and watching movies with Alec and the cats. It’s hard but necessary.
My son and I are thinking , I have not checked in with y’all in a long time.
So hola galeras,
I am tired. I am tired but in a good way , I hope. My creative mind is burning bright but not so much it might burn out. That is a fear of mine still. That I’m on the end of my candle in the darkness. The sleeping world calls to me these days and sometimes I hate it. My wounds strip me of my energy. What wounds? The ones left from bleeding and bruising. I’m deeply annoyed a lot but I blame it on my diabetes. It puts me in a bad mood sometimes for no reason. I’m trying to meditate more, which is to say I should start meditating again.
I dream about my future sometimes. I see my future home and my studio. So two homes. A lot of kermet green tile. I see lots of fuzzy rugs. So much music. And the cats are there with me and Alec is jamming out.
Hope all is well. In the time of 2025 I am moving and shaken. I feel like all these things are kind of leading into beautiful little adventures that will leave imprints on artwork I can make later. There’s just this perfect aspect about conveyor belt, sushi. You just feel so fancy eating very little food
I think the funny thing about the metro and riding the trains in general is I was always afraid of them in my 20s. Well really up until my 20s. I just had this uncontrollable fear that I was gonna get lost and never find my way back home. There’s probably something to that, but I’m not going to look too deep into that right now. It was a beautiful celebration of Mylo and their birthday. Alec still has the perfect touch when it comes to playing claw machine machines and I might even actually be developing a skill.
I can’t even begin to tell you how busy this week was but it was amazing and incredibly hear some videos I put up .
Sales my week I feel really good about it. I feel like I really succeeded and did well and I’m living in my dream as a working artist. I’ve been working hard for a long time, but every time I do it, I’m always just amazed and blown away extremely happy. Onto the next week.