Impossible tings

I have found myself living inside of my head, more so.

I made a list of things I would love to do but saw at some point maybe even now improbable.

1. Paint a 100ft mural in South America.

2. Make my own designer plastic toys.

3. Become a full time painter.

4. Build a greenhouse when we get a house.

5. Only speak Portuguese for a year.

6. Only eat fresh farmer’s market foods everyday.

7. Make art on the moon.

8. Retire my family all at once, together off my art.

9. Make all my own animation for my videos and make money from it.

These are not all impossible, most aren’t even hard to start doing. I guess there is a fear of failure and a fear of how expensive that failure would be. So I dream out loud and circle them on my calendars and planners.

I think I can do some of them this year. Mostly the Moon one. 🥰🫀

We are only stopped by our mind’s limits. I want to think it’s all a lucid dream. The ocean is my metronome.

My dream of a green house.

What would you do if you won the lottery?

If I won all that money? Alec and I dream out loud a lot. We want a beautiful artsy house like Frida Khalo had. She had this amazing Blue house with a courtyard. I would want ours to be dark lime green. It would have only a few rooms but they would be just big enough for the things we wanted in them. So at least two studios and offices and bedrooms and kitchen…and a large TV room with cat towers for the babies.

I guess the big dream is to not worry anymore once the bills would be all paid off. To be able to just relax and feel safe.

It’s simple but perfect for what we need.

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Reacting into the void and expecting comfort.

I was a duckling same as you and the fluff fell out and I never felt what it meant to be cold again. Childhood left me and as I reached for the stars above me in the middle of the night on a sun deck at a lake house I felt the true disconnect of existence. The true cold was the loneliness. I forgot it and it forgot me, two strangers see each other naked across a skyline and not knowing what to do.

Reaching out into the void, mentally wet.