Always making
https://anchor.fm/jawara-blake/episodes/Painter-Files-Podcast-ep-60—my-lemon-bones-e3ern8
I love how this one came together. It feels like I might be getting the hang of it.
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new award for my Patreon folks. Just something nice and pretty. I have made a bunch of covers as the years have gone by and I loe this one.
So each one will have hand written message and a doddle on the back. This will be available to al my Patreon’s from now on.
I have $1,$5,$10 and $20 groups.
My plan is to do a new one every month.
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Drink me in and the paint will
take you
away
Let the art be as you feel in the times
of me
and ink
and a kingdom
of dirty fingers
snacks
of
pb and j
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just a curly haired
little man
living in the future body
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Find me by the water
my toes cold from the edge of the wet
the pinky toes resting the eyes of the next painting on my mind
madness
best part of making
toys of a child
Rage
time
hurt
madness
the brush is too honest.
The action is the riot.
I don’t feel the “cash money word.”
I am never the DJ from Do the Right Thing.
I am the tool of the paint and ink
never the narrator as it happens
but the narrator as it ends
post motion
The soul of me wants to rest in a pure ocean of fluid making.
Listen to the most recent episode of my podcast: Painter Files podcast episode 59 -tune of cats https://anchor.fm/jawara-blake/episodes/Painter-Files-podcast-episode-59–tune-of-cats-e3eaf6
The thing about growing as a person is you only really see it after it happens a year later mostly. I feel in my new year of life I’m learning a lot more about control of my inner thoughts. I’m stopping from just arguing about the simple bits, “just keep making kiddo.”
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This life feels like a war. The hero and the villains are just me. It’s silly how many times I kill me in the mornings. I rise back up only to come eye to eye with my true worst enemy and best allies. The word insanity does not cover it. I go left its wrong, I faint right and I’m wrong. So many imperfections and all are madness. All I find true any of it is chaos. The fire melts the paper into ash and then becomes ink and then is the lifeblood of creativity. I don’t know how to win but maybe the win is never the point but the freedom of chaos is.
Be the ink and stain as you go. The marks are the eyelashes of the sleeping face and in the morning they have washed away only to be replaced every night. Pollack had this drunken madness of making like no one else and didn’t care if it lasts past his life. I want to adopt this idea of madness. It feels the heartbeat of truth in my time.
I think I'm going to start an endless war with myself in making. I wonder who will win?
Both will survive or both will die and both can choice the stillness of inaction but I want the fight.
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Artists
Theo Ellisworth
Mj Lindo
Frannerd
Heather Mahler
Author
Author Nersesian
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So I’m working on all these pieces trying to cultivate a masterpiece. It feels almost impossible but the unattainable is the goal of all master artists. I feel like I’m learning so much from just doing these days and building in my mind as well. Nothing is my stopping point but me. There are hard steps but I’m choosing to walk into them with my head high and my shoulders back. There will be changes and reflexive reactions. 
the beast is my nature and my nature is the chaos of being creative. No soul knows everything but good planning leave little for mistakes and forgiving yourself to make mistakes painting leads to our right brilliant brush strokes.
This has been my Ted talk.
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https://itunes.apple.com/us/book/painter-files/id1412300309?mt=11
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